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Thank you

Thank you

Two or three days ago I got an email from one of mine good friend. The essence of email is like this “ hey Pakash, I helped her a lot but she even did not asked me for a cup of coffee. She even did not say me thank you. What type of girl she is.” My friend was slightly furiated.

Well this seems to a simple mail, But as you go deeper to this mail this is directly related to our heart, our work, our level of satisfaction. To understand all this, I asked a simple question why people work. What people get if he helps someone. Every body works because he gets something, if somebody says, I am working selflessly, I cannot believe. Here selfish is taken in wider sense.

 Let come to my friends point. One girl got admission abroad where my friend was already doing masters degree. The girl reached to the university abroad. It is difficult to be settled down initially when you go at new place especially outside India . There if somebody did not help you, you will face a lot of difficulty. So, my friend tried to make her settled down easily. He helped her in getting in touch with the new environment. Now girls’ class has started and she becomes busy. She never said even thanks to my friend. I don’t want to write more.

I also came across the same type of situation with the same girl in my life. I did not say I help her, but yes I also thought she will say thank you to me. But did not said. Later I realisesd that when ever you work for someone don’t even expect a thank you. You will be hurting your self.

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Track

Track

Am I on the wrong track?

Sometimes, it happens that you find that every thing is going differently. No body is supporting you. You seem to be completely different person in the world. If nobody is supporting you this does not mean that you are on the wrong track. I will tell you a new of my personal experience.

I was having a personal doubt in my mind “whether one partner should to tell the life history to the other partner or not”. My answer was that yes one should always tell the past to his other partner. I asked this question to some of my friend (boys, and girls). They replied “why you want to know the past enjoy your present you are in the present and be happy with that. They argued, it’s not good to know the past.

I felt bad. I thought perhaps my argument is wrong. We should not to ask these things with partner. I searched in the internet whether anybody who has same type of thinking as mine. Every body is saying that never tell your past to your other partner. I felt very bad; I thought my opinion is very bad. Why I want to know the past. May be I am a bad mentality person. I started to think that my mental level is not as high as others are?


Today, when I was going through the internet, I found that there is a person who has the same opinion which I have. She thinks in the same way which way I think. And her argument is stronger than anybodies argument. I became very happy to read her argument. It seems to be mine argument.

This thing has given me a great strength; the strength is that there are very few people in the world who accepts the truth. Every body just wanted to be happy somehow. There are very few in the world having the same view which you have. More accurately if you are on the different track from others you will not find ant friend there. (or I can call on right track).
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Jo Beet Jayi so Baat Gayi

Well, some people think this way “jo beet gaya so beet gaya ….. jo beetna hai use hans ke bita ….”. well, every body wants to be happy. This is the aim of life. But happiness on the account of some other unhappiness is not a true happiness. Well, to understand this, I will first tell you one story. Story goes like this,
Hari Prasad was a manager in
patna in electricity board. I have ever seen such a good personality in my life. He was very emotional, always encouraging to other. When ever, I gone to his house he encouraged me for study. He said study is the best way to achieve entire thing. He was a religious person by nature. He prayed to God every morning. He was very sweet by nature.

It was around 20 years when he married by one women. He had a daughter also. He was living happily. After some year he again decided to marry with another woman. I am 100% sure it was not due to lust it was due to some relation problem. He married with Rekha. He was enjoying the family life. He was very happy with the world. As time gone her second wife started to take care of everything in the house. The first one is out of question. He also started to like the second wife more. And result is that the first wife has been out of the house. She was living in the village, where he has his house and the second one is living in patna with happily. The family progressed. He has children. He was living very happily.


I generally visit their house at
Patna. When last time, I reached to his house. He was of around 70 years. I heard he is facing illness so I decided to see him. I went there. I sat on the bed, where he was sleeping. I prayed him and God that he will be recovered soon. The very first sentence came from his mouth is “baitho beta “ (to me) kaise ho tumhari padhai kaisi chal rahi hai. I was very impressed. He said dekho beta bhagwan jo karta hai wo aacha hi karta hai. Mai janata hoon ki mai ab jayada din nahi bacoonga. He was facing heart problem and doctor had said that he is going to die in one month. So Hari Prasad was afraid of his death. He was almost watching his death in his imagination.


As, he was in the death bed and feeling very sad. Sad not because he is going to die. He is a very matured person and he knows that the body is mortal. He said “ Beta you know I have done everything good in my life but for one thing I regret. And perhaps this is the only thing which does not gives me happiness at the time of death. I wanted to die happily, but now I am feeling very regretted. He said “ Beta you know why I am having problem in my heart. He again said ‘ this is because I have not done faithfulness to my first wife. I have been cursed by the God. God will never excuse me because I have done bad with my first wife. He was feeling very regret, and guilty.


Well, now comes to the point, he lived his life very happily. He has son and daughter not only this he has good name in the society, but is he is not happy at the end of the day. He tried to show everybody that he was happy in his life, but at some corner of his heart there was some fear. And this fear always made him unhappy. Now when he is going to die, his fear is coming out of his heart. He is feeling regretted. So I personally feel that you should not try to make your castle of happiness on the base of unhappiness. You first try to find the reason of unhappiness at the very beginning when you are going to make the building of happiness. This story is just a symbolic story. You can apply this with your life.

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Improve

Improve

Do you think that there is something missing in you? Do you sometime feel that you are not a good human being? Do you sometime feel bored from every thing what ever you do? Do you sometime think that why do you work. There are infinite no of question of this type. Everybody has own perspective to think about all this.

And answer for all this is directly related to the knowledge, which you have. Nothing is wrong and nothing is absolute right. It is your knowledge which will decide the trueness and falseness of the statement. Sometime it happens that the argument which looks absurd today may look logical later. It happens because ones thinking changes with time. Some people’s perspective does not changes with time. I don’t think this is a correct thing.

Whatever wrong or right thinking should be changing with time. A still river does not look good. In the same way a still mind becomes bored. So give sufficient and nutrious food to your mind.

 Now question comes how ones thinking becomes broad (for me broad means a continuous thinking)? For me it is the books, it is the gossiping with friend, relatives, and elders. Elders are really a good source. These are the best resources freely available in the society. When ever you feel whether I start doing this work or not, you ask to your elders. He will tell his experience, and those experiences are really valuable.

For me I think books are the best source for continuous thinking process. You must have good habbit of reading for to be a good human being. As the more no of books (related to society, humanity, and all other) one read he finds more satisfied to himself, he becomes more humble towards other, he acts very politely, and he finds many good qualities in himself. So I think one having a desire to becoming a good human being should start reading, or discussing with others on good topic. One may find his own way to improve yourself. Like many of my friends think alone. No discussion.

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The Day

The Day.

How will i live my life? Broken heart, no need to live the life. It is very difficult to live the life. Why i will live, for whom i will live, what is the meaning of life. No, No i will not die i have to live. What is my age, half life gone half is more. Only the half is more. Life goes with a very fast speed. Don’t worry at all. It will easily be gone. Ten years passes with such a speed that we don’t even know when it came and when it went. Start working on something, try to remain with friend, make somebody to laugh on your joke, do something by which you get pleasure, do something which gives you entertainment.

But how i will live the life. It is difficult to live alone for thirty year. I will be bored. It is good that i will keep entertaining myself by doing something, by writing something, by making somebody happy. But i will know that all i am doing is just to make my self happy. I know that what ever i am doing is just for my pleasure. Ok i will work in the day, but what about night. Will i not feel alone? No, i got the idea i will read something.  Reading will make me enjoyed. Reading also calls sleep.  And once i am slept i am happy.  Sleeping is the best state of mind.

Get up in the morning and prepare for office. Keep busy your self. Leave office early, talk in the way with people. But why i will go for office what is the meaning of going office. What i will do there? I know i don’t have any desire to work, more correctly i started to hate work. I just want to work so that i get enough money to my survival. What about my parents. I respect them. I love them. I want to give them money, i want to give them happiness, but what can i do God made be broken heart. I am not in control of myself. Some outer world is controlling me. Hey God, why you made me broken heart?  No, No, i have not did any misbehave in the previous birth. Then why God is taking revenge to me. It must be a mistake by God. He has to take revenge from somebody else in place of me.

Why not you go for sex? Enjoy some girls and make life colourful. I lost interest in sex. Sex is interesting till you have interest. People loose interest in sex because they are doing only with one person. I lost interest without doing even a single person. Hey, i am not in third category. When ever i saw a good girl i like them. But don’t felt good. Love and girl has gone out of my life.

I started every fresh day with a good mood but whole situation changed as soon as i started to brood. Why i am living, what is the point of living? I tried my best not to come these thinking but still coming. Bad things always comes to mind.

No, no i will not die. Dyeing is not a solution. It is better to do something rather than dying. I know i am heart broken. I am not only the one there are a lot. Every body is facing the same problem, how to survive every day of life. I will survive, i have to go, i have to go.

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Painting wala

                                                              Painting wala


Tan Tan Tan Tan – The door bell rang. I was in the dining room preparing for structural steel design course examination. Again tan tan tan – Ok. I am coming wait a minute. I opened the door; a long white man with some large canvas paper was standing at the door.

I said – Hi, he replied Hi – how are you? I replied – I am fine. After gazing at me, he said, do you want to buy some canvas. He said defining himself, I am art student. Your neighbor said you people might be interested in buying some paintings. Do you want to see it? I said ok, wait a minute. I am just coming. I asked to my friend Arun –“ Hey Arun, do you want to buy some paintings?” He said no. I told the situation to Arun and asked then what I should to reply to the guy who is waiting at the door.

 He said – tell him we don’t want paintings. Now, it was a difficult situation for me, how I answer NO to that guy who is waiting at the door in a hope of YES answer. I have gone to the door and said we don’t have enough money to buy the paintings. But, I want to see your paintings. I will not be able to buy anyone. If you can show me then I will be thankful to you. He agreed, to show me the paintings. It was really nice paintings. I was looking on painting with an astonished gaze. I was surprised to see all the paintings. It was really nice paintings. We were looking and conversing about the paintings. I asked is this all are water colour paintings. He replied no these are oil paintings. I said ohhhh that’s good.

Approximately, he showed me twenty paintings. He was very happy to show me the paintings. More correctly I was also very happy to see all the paintings. He said to me after watching all the painting – you like flowers. (He is able to read my interest and my taste after praising his particular paintings on flower) I said yes, I like flowers a lot but, I also like natural scenarios. All your paintings are very good. He was very happy. I still remember the word “he saidI am flooded now to show you the paintings.” (Here I am not able to write some conversations, which are a feeling and can not be bound in sentences……I and he, read those sentences as a output of heart feeling in respective eyes.)

At the end of the day I realized that no artist sells his art for money. he need praise and he got from our house that’s why he was flooded.

Taken from beta blogger written one year ago and not nicely written

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Thank you

 

Thank you  Two or three days ago I got an email from one of mine good friend. The essence of email is like this “ hey Pakash, I helped her a lot but she even did not asked me for a cup of coffee. She even did not say me thank you. What type of girl she is.” My friend was slightly furiated.  Well this seems to a simple mail, But as you go deeper to this mail this is directly related to our heart, our work, our level of satisfaction. To understand all this, I asked a simple question why people work. What people get if he helps someone. Every body works because he gets something, if somebody says, I am working selflessly, I cannot believe. Here selfish is taken in wider sense.  Let come to my friends point. One girl got admission abroad where my friend was already doing masters degree. The girl reached to the university abroad. It is difficult to be settled down initially when you go at new place especially outside India. There if somebody did not help you, you will face a lot of difficulty. So, my friend tried to make her settled down easily. He helped her in getting in touch with the new environment. Now girls’ class has started and she becomes busy. She never said even thanks to my friend. I don’t want to write more.  I also came across the same type of situation with the same girl in my life. I did not say I help her, but yes I also thought she will say thank you to me. But did not said. Later I realisesd that when ever you work for someone don’t even expect a thank you. You will be hurting your self.

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