Crap-Ass Job
I am looking for a crap ass Job. No….. No….. it’s not truth, I am not looking, I am in a hope that somebody will come to me and say that you have this job. I don’t have any patience to search a job, I don’t want to struggle now, that’s over, and my inner is dead, completely dead. I have degree from best universities fromIndia and other corner of the world. I am talented, as people says; I am a good human being; as I feel myself; I love people because I don’t have someone my own to love; I enjoy playing jokes so that I don’t feel alone; sometime people think that I am playing jokes for them; a complete illusion to the world; a illusion to my friends; I write because I can’t do anything else, I write because I love comment, comment- the strength of my life. I am looking for a job so that life goes on, I am looking for a job so that I can give some money to parents they have a lot of hope from me. From the child hood they sacrificed their happiness in a hope that one day will come and my son will take care of us. I have to give money. Giving money to parents-that is also a part my selfishness, how? If I give money, they will not know that what is going inside my inner. But I know my mother will know, one day she will discover everything, because she has internal connection of heart with me. What ever the days with me, I have to enjoy that’s it. Enjoy reading, enjoy writing, enjoy talking, enjoy loneliness, enjoy the God, and enjoy watching girls. Nothing is bad in this world, no restriction; life comes only once, you have to decide your Dharama. Live with full devotion, live with passion, don’t care about the society, what they think, do what ever you feel good.
My loneliness has taught me lesson of Dharma which no scripture can teach, or more correctly this lesson can’t be formatted in any text book. If somehow it gets formatted, you can not decipher the written code, because the code is written in a language of loneliness and you don’t know the language, so how can you decipher? First you have to learn the language then decipher the code, but once you learn the language you will not need any code. That’s why I say no use of formatting in a form of book. You can buy the life book on a cost of loneliness. If you will try to buy with a payment partial loneliness, you will not get the original version of the book; you will end up with a copied one. And every body knows reading copied one is not as pleasurable as the original one. You have to decide you want original book or you want copied one, either you want to live for yourself or you want to live for other self. Choice is yours.
Give me a job, any job, any crap ass job; part time, full time, morning or evening, time does not matter. I will show you this is the best job possible on this earth. Give me job. I know my loneliness can be ended up only with writing, playing jokes, talking with people, enjoying the moments.
Give me a job,India or somewhere else. I will preferIndia because I have my parents there. My parents, I have to take care of them, my sisters, I have to love her, my relative, I have to talk to him, my friends, I don’t like them they tried to make my fun, people working with my parents – my heart, I have to take care of my heart. You will get very less money if you will work some crap ass company inIndia. Who the hell say this? What you will do with the money? Buy a bungalow, buy a car, buy some sari, buy some perfume, and buy some sex magazine that’s it. It is not the whole life. It is a part of life; I agree, this is way to live I agree but the real life is some where else, some where else. Give me a job any where in the world in any corner, I don’t have patience to search for job. Give me a crap job. I know only the degree will give me the job. I know, I have to find my job, crap ass job. Dedicated to : Holly Lisle , a way of life
